Longsuffering

Here are the songs on my first CD

"I Will Run With Horses"

"The Power Of One"

I Am An Evil Man

What happens when I leave this earth?
Am I forever gone or do I rebirth?
What happens? I do not know
When the seeds that I’ve sown start to grow.

I know that I am an evil man
I know that I am an evil man

How many torments await times three?
There is no one to blame, but me
How I wish I had peace in my soul
I want to do right, but my heart is cold

I know that I am an evil man
I know that I am an evil man

There seems no escape from this curse I bear
On and on I run, but I run to where?
Eternity waits to embrace me
Will I be slave or will I be free

I know that life is way too long
I know that consequenses tarry on

I heard of a man, he was the first to escape who I am
I heard he died, but he rose
I want to know what he knows
I heard he died for me, from my sins I shall be free
Why do I live on in filth?
The chains are gone, the shackles are free
Why do I love my sin?
What is the matter with me?

I know that I am an evil man
I know that I am an evil man
I know that I am an evil man

I Will Run With Horses

If you feel worn out, tired ,and weak when you run with men
How then shall you run with horses?
And if you stumble and fall when you are safe at home
How then shall you stand my son when you are all alone?
And how can you continue in sin and still condemn your brother?
How can you have a beam in your eye and see the speck in another’s?

A man is not born a hero, songs about him they do not sing
Until he does something great, until he is amazing
The man stood strong, the man stood tall
He did what was right, he didn’t fall
He risked his life, he risked his soul
Against all odds he had hope

I will stay true, I will stand, I will run with horses
I will believe, I will not fall, By your grace I stand
With my Lord I can do all things, I will run with horses
Even to death I carry my cross, I will fly with angels!
Even to death I carry my cross, I will walk with Jesus!

From The Deepest Pit

With Satan as your master the only way to go is south,
He’ll tempt and tease until you’re trapped in his mouth,
oh-oh-oh
Like many others I fell for his tricks,
Devilish innocence fooled me,
But now my son I’ve fallen to the lowest hell,
And there is no turning back for me,
oh-oh-oh
I’m lost forever, won’t somebody save me?
I’m lost forever, won’t somebody save me?

Then a man came to me through the darkness,
He said he was from above came to set me free,
He told me of a man , his name Christ Jesus,
Who makes the lame to walk and the blind to see,
oh-oh-oh
I said my Lord if this is true then take me,
And use me to reach the lost for a bit,
Lord, I’m not ashamed for you my soul have saved,
You have taken me from the deepest pit,
oh-oh-oh
Then he came to me, my Lord the King,
Then he came to me, my Lord the King,

Ten thousand times ten thousand,
and thousands upon thousands,
Myriads of angels came,
They came to save my soul, MY SOUL, from hell!
Then Jesus Christ, the one true light,
The lamb of God, precious in God’s sight,
Broke down hell’s gates to set the ransomed free,
Indeed, He came for me,
He met me, he took me, he saved me from where I was

Beautiful Soul

I am looking for someone, someone with a beauttiful soul
But alas, she is rare, like a precious jewel, she eludes me
Her heart it glows, She is somewhere!
And humility clothes her, her beauty shines wherever she goes
But alas, untill I find my beautiful soul, until I find my love...I walk alone

And she can hold her head up high, and she knows no shame
For she has paid the price, my Lord knows her name
Her heart it glows, She is somewhere!
And I am proud to walk beside, and I trust her with my heart and soul
But alas, untill I find my beautiful soul, until I find my love...I walk alone

So I will save myself, So I will be true
So I’ll be upright, I’ll be the man you’d want from me
My heart it glows, She is somewhere!
And I know that I am nothing, I know I am but a stranger to you
But alas, untill I find my beautiful soul, until I find my love...I walk alone

She is somewhere!
She is somewhere!
She is somewhere!
But alas, untill I find my beautiful soul, until I find my love...I walk alone

Sphere Of Safety

I live here in my bubble, I don’t want any trouble
I’ve been here for a long time and I like it this way
Got God up on a shelf, I’m fine here by myself
Go to church every week, but I don’t hear a word you say
I can’t feel your pain, this week I’m up for a raise,
I tithe when people watch me, I’m doing fine, just let me be

Sir, you do not know the way, you are lost , have hell to pay
When you’ve not helped the least of these, you have not helped me
Radical walk, not complacent talk, you cannot turn back the clock
Now your sentence falls on thee, but it’s from your mouth and not from me

Got a house up on a hill, a wife, two kids, yeah I get my fill
I live the American dream, for me things are what they seem
I’m content with all my things, I see my paycheck and my heart sings
I know right where I’m going is right where I am
I won’t see the poor from my bubble, how can they live in such rubble?
I am much better than them, I’ve been freed from my sin

Mediocrity suits me fine, I’ve got plenty of time
I’m no worse than you, am I ?
Three bucks of religion please, I don’t want to get on my knees
I may be numb to God’s voice, but I’m not alone
I live here in my bubble, I DON”T NEED YOUR TROUBLE,
I’ve been here for a long time and I like it this way

The Road To Hell

Today I went and I visited the house of Satan,
He knew my name,
This is not the first time,
He knew my inmost desire,
He knew right what I needed and he touched me there again,
I know there is a price to pay,
He’ll feast upon my soul one day,
I don’t think I’m all that bad,
I can leave anytime I want to,
But I kind of like it here,
And where would I go?

I gave away my soul for nothing,
I have got no soul to sell,
I’ll spend forever burning,
I have run the road to hell!

But everyday my fix gets bigger, the rush gets smaller,
The price goes up, and I need it more ,
And everyday I wonder a little more why
I came here in the first place
I don’t know why
oh-oh oh-oh oh

I gave away my soul for nothing,
I have got no soul to sell,
I’ll spend forever burning,
I have run the road to hell!

Lately I’ve noticed that my chain doesn’t seem quite as long,
Lately I’ve noticed that my dose doesn’t seem quite as strong,
And that the hollowness in my heart is full,
And I don’t care about anything anymore,
And I feel that I don’t have too long to go,

I can’t move... I can’t speak... the time is now... he’s come for me!
Wait ,“NO”, remember we are friends,
That hurts, that burns, that doesn’t bend!
I never thought it would come to this, I thought you loved me
You lie, but I believed

The Fig Tree

On a hill, not alone, surrounded by no fruit on every side,
The season for love may never come,
Don’t want to stand out alone...I will wait

One day my Lord will come for me,
Surely some one will let us know,
They’ve been saying that for years,
Maybe one day I’ll choose to grow...but you first

Oh wait here he comes for me,
Now there is no time for fruit to grow,
He looks inside this leafy tree, he’s hungry,
But there is no good fruit on this soul...Oh no!

I am the fig tree, the fig tree it is me,
In a world where God’s season never came,
I never let God grow in me,

Bitterness has overcome,
There is nothing good upon me,
So now I die with everyone,
Withered from the root of my tree,
Never to live again,

I am the fig tree, the fig tree it is me,
In a world where God’s season never came,
I never let God grow in me,

So learn a lesson from me,
Stripped of what I thought me to be,
Swiftly run to the light ahead,
Swiftly run to the light ahead

Crushed

I’ve been smitten, I’ve been wronged,
I know more pain then I’ve ever known before,
The wound I carry knows no healing,
The cross I bear is unyielding pain,
I don’t know how I find the strength to make it through the day,
And I don’t know how I hold my head up to fake a smile,
You don’t know the weight of the burden I carry,
You don’t know how it crushes me,

Perhaps you know how it feels to hear the words that smother you,
Perhaps you know how it feels when your heart dies,
When you’d rather be dead than alive,
Nothing matters when you’ve lost everything,
Nothing matters to me,

I forgive you my love,
And I lay down all rights I have,
You are beautiful in my eyes,
Come and join me in eternal life,
May the sun always shine upon you,
May everything you touch be blessed,
I forgive you my love,
And I lay down all rights I have,
You are beautiful in my eyes ,
Come and join me in eternal life

I Will Rise

In a dark world I stumble blind,
Fallen flat on my face most of the time,
I am unworthy, I am unclean,
Woe to my people and woes to me,
I know the way not, to make it home,
But I hold hands with the one who made this world,

And I am not alone, I am not alone,

And so I don’t fall I listen carefully,
I don’t have the strength so I take it day by day,
For many times I want to give up and end it all,
I am not afraid for my Lord is Lord of all,

I’m not afraid, I am not alone, I am free!

And through the quiet, and through the peace,
All of the angels they have rejoiced for me,
And I don’t know the reason why I have been found,
But I fall on my knees for I stand on holy ground,
I don’t know what God has in store for me,
But wherever He leads, I believe,

I believe, I will follow, I will rise!

Time Well Spent

Lord you know me from head to toe,
You know where I come and when I go,
You know my inmost being and my sin,
Lord I know that you respect no one,
There is no one rigteous, no not one,
We all like sheep, we have gone astray,
And when the night makes my head clear,
And I sense that you are very near,
And your honesty it stops all the lies,
Who am I?
Lord I am yours from head to toe,
I am yours where ever I go,
I know that you will never leave,
I know that you, you love me!

Lord sometimes I lose my way,
I think of all the bills I have to pay,
And all the things I have to do,
Instead of love you,
And Lord sometimes I build a shrine,
Because I cannot find the time,
To spend alone with you in prayer,
So I act like I don’t care,
But Lord our time together is sweet,
I shed tears as I’m on my knees,
And just as soon I forget,
Oh Lord, how I long to be home,
With temptation and sin very far gone,
Sometimes this burden crushes me,
I long to be free!

And son, don’t you know I love you, don’t be so hard,
Soon you’ll be home,
And tears of joy stream down my face when I see your faith,
I leap from my thone,
And son, I know it’s hard to walk the extra mile, but you’re love is bold,
And I’ve got such a party waiting for you, it’ll never be through,
Soon you’ll be home,
Soon you’ll be home

Home At Last

My eyes have seen their share of pain, and my hands have worked hard
My feet have walked the extra mile, and my face turned the other cheek
And I have run tirelessly, and my heart is scarred
And my spirit’s humble and I am meek

For my life it is a battlefield, and I have run just like he planned
I stand strong, and I stand bloody, And I stand weak, but I do stand
For one day I will leave here, this prison I call my home
And I will not look back and I will not cry, but tears of joy... for I am home

You can mock and you can laugh at me, and you can kill me and you can steal
But you cannot take my spirit and my soul you cannot steal
And you cannot take away my dignity and you cannot take me from my home
I do not fear, I will not be afraid, you cannot take what I don’t give

For not one day has escaped me without me begging for it to be my last
That’s right, I said
NOT ONE DAY HAS ESCAPED ME WITHOUT ME BEGGING FOR IT TO BE MY LAST!
I have died, but I’m not alone, for I know God and his Son
And I have taken a beating , and I have lost some, but Hallelujah! I have won!

Hallelujah! I’m finally home, Hallelujah! I am free!
Hallelujah! I’m finally home, Hallelujah! I am free!
No more pain and no more tears, no more death I’m finally free!
No more pain and no more tears, no more death I’m finally free!
Hallelujah! I’m finally home, Hallelujah! I am free!
Hallelujah! I’m finally home, Hallelujah! I am free!

I Know Pain, I Know Sorrow

Close your eyes if but for a moment,
I know that you do not have much time,
Two thousand years ago, yes you remember ,
God hung clothed in flesh, died for your sins and mine,
He marched as a criminal to Calvary,
Mocked and beaten then we nailed him to the tree,
Are you still blind my child, can you not see,
Your sin nailed him there , but he rose to free,

I know that it has been hard for you lately my child,
I know pain, I know sorrow, I know love,
Even in the valley I’ll be there with you,
I am able to deliver you, so be strong,

God, it feels like I’m in the desert,
Been here forty days and going on forty nights,
The devil’s closing in to devour ,
I don’t have much strength, I think I’m going to die,

Wait, a shaft of light , yes there I see it,
The end is near, the tunnel’s not so deep,
There is someone who has been here before me,
He know’s the way, yes he has eyes to see,

I know that it has been hard for you lately my child,
I know pain, I know sorrow, I know love,
Even in the valley I’ll be there with you,
I am able to deliver you, so be strong,

Think it not strange when you walk the path of sorrows our Lord has trod,
We all have our share of burdens, we must all carry our cross,
And I bear my share of scars from a battle, how can I sleep?
When it seems like the enemy is closing in we need to get down on our knees,
And I bear no shame when I preach in Jesus’ name

No One Left?

Is there no one left who can see through the eyes of God?
Is there no one left with a heart?
Is there no one with any sense of compassion beyond their own agenda?
Is there no one?
And it must break your heart to see the sin reign in this land
It is hard pressed down and overflowing!
For if I had my way I’d burn this place right to the ground
I’d spare no one, no, not even me!
But thank you, you are beautiful beyond imagination, you are my Lord and king
Behold the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world, you’re why I sing
But who will, who will tell them Lord? Here I am ! Please send me!
For when I close my eyes for the last time
Oh Hallelujah! it’s you and me

For when I close my eyes for the last time
Oh Hallelujah! it’s you and me ( repeat)

This Lonely Heart

One day this lonely heart will beat no more,
Oh what a happy and glorious morn’,
For though my body has met the greatest pain on earth,
And to death I have fallen,
My soul is now with the Lord and I am now in heaven!

My time on earth is over, the veil has been lifted,
The two who were divided now meet,
My Lord and I, we talk face to face,
He says my son was that such a feat?

For we have forever, you are mine and I am yours,
And by the way “Well done with your chores”,
I know it wasn’t easy, but was it really hard?
After all I was with yu all the while

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